Weigh-In .... Week 12

Maintained.

Current Weight: 212

I'm shocked. Very happy, but still shocked that I managed to recover and get back on track the rest of the week.

Plus I'm super bloated as it's that time of the month, and exercising is like torture to me these days. I can't put my finger on why I hate doing it - but I do, and I avoid it like the plague.

The Depression Diet

Seriously. This weekend was bad, as there were several BAD meals involved, overeating and snacking. I can't help it -- my period is coming and my appetite is in full force. And, since Friday I have worked out - uhh, about 20 minutes worth last night. That's it. Again, I cannot get the energy and desire to exercise.

I got on the scale last night - and the blasted scale was almost thrown out the window. It showed a 7 .... yes, SEVEN .... pound gain. WHAT?!? You've got to be F-ING kidding me!! It was late, so I weighed again this morning - undressed like I normally do - and it showed only 2 lbs.

Well, okay. I can somewhat handle that. I have to get off my ass and just do this. I was doing so well, and even last week with maintaining, I still wasn't doing too shabby. 23 pounds in 11 weeks is still pretty damn good (I have to keep telling myself that). But now I'm looking at the grim reality that I'm going to GAIN this week. I have not gained back a single pound this entire time. How can I start gaining NOW?

I've also realized, I am not going to reach my mini goal of 199 or less by April 7. That's just 9 days away, folks. It's not going to happen. There is no way my body is going to let go of 13 more pounds in that amount of time.

199 is a huge deal for me ..... it just seems like once I'm below the dreaded 200 mark, that 160 won't seem like it's sooooooooo far away.

Weigh-In .... Week 11

Not a surprise. Stayed the same this week.

Current Weight: 212

No problem. It's been over a week since my last workout, and the past couple days I have been fighting with an increased appetite.

I did take my first Leptopril pill this morning. It says to take 2 pills before each meal - but I only took 1 before breakfast, and my plan is to have 1 before dinner. I just didn't want to overdo it at first, in case my body wouldn't react well. I figure I'll ease in to it. So, we'll see how it all pans out.

So right now I am off to go do (or at least, attempt) a 3-mile walk.

Just want to eat, eat, EAT!

My appetite has increased and it's like I cannot satisfy it. Before sitting down to eat dinner, I was so hungry, and couldn't wait for dinner to be ready so I found myself grabbing croutons and Cheez-Its to chow on.

I couldn't help myself!!!

And even just having eaten dinner less than an hour ago, I'm already thinking "Hmmm.....what can I snack on while I watch American Idol?". Seriously, WHAT is my problem?

Then, I got to thinking about it. I think my period is coming soon. I mean - I have to look it up to see when it's actually due, but I'm guessing it's in a week or so, which would probably explain the sudden desire to eat everything in sight.

During Photos - 10 Weeks In

Seriously, don't mind the drunken/stoned look -- I am NOT intoxicated. Just sick and sleepy. LOL

Weigh-in .... Week 10

10 weeks in. I promise I'll get some new pictures up soon.

So - drumroll please -

I lost 3 pounds!

Current Weight: 212

I guess I'm doing better than I give myself credit for.

I feel like $h!t

I'm feeling horrible. I barely slept last night, as the nighttime cold medicine I took had the reverse effect on me, and I was restless.

I'm bummed because I really wanted to see some good results this week. It's just not going to happen with the lack of exercise. There's no way I'm going to have the energy to do it today - it was hard enough to do what I did last night.

Tomorrow is weigh-in, and I was honestly hoping to see a loss of 2 pounds. I just don't think that's going to happen.

While I've been eating good for the most part (Sunday I ate at Portillos and Tuesday afternoon I had McDonald's), and I haven't had a snack after dinner in days (that is my downfall, wanting a snack after dinner while I'm relaxing watching TV - I normally try to make a sensible choice like pretzels or grapes or a 100 calorie bag of popcorn). For exercise, I did 2-miles on Friday, and then danced for a couple hours that night, but only did a little bit Tuesday night, and last night I did about 1.5 miles.

And now today - I know I should just be forcing myself to eat to keep my metabolism going, but I have no appetite. I am drinking water to keep myself hydrated, but other than that, I'm not in the mood to eat. I don't feel good, and I don't even have the energy to eat. Being at work is a task in itself. I'm hoping to get out of here early so I can head home, though not sure how much relaxing I'll get to do there with the kids. Mike is working til 8 tonight, and by that time the kids will already be in their beds.

I'm just in a down mood - feeling sorry for myself, I guess. I hate being sick. It's only a cold - not a big deal - but any sickness really brings my mood down.

Under the Weather

I'm sick. I feel horrible. It started last night with a sore throat. It has progressed into a really bad sore throat, slightly feverish, achy and just feel blah overall. Even my back hurts.

I tried my best to workout tonight, and I did manage to hold out for about 20 minutes or so, estimated I did about a mile and a half or a tad more of the 3 mile workout. At least it was something. But I just couldn't gather the energy to do more.

I'm still waiting on the Leptopril to arrive. It's been over a week since I bought them. I honestly expected them by now. I have an email in to the seller, inquiring as to where they are because they were supposed to be shipped Priority mail. Hope they arrive soon, I'm anxious (though nervous) to try them.

But, I do keep telling myself that I lost TWENTY pounds all by myself and that is no small feat. I think that is incredible, as I am just heading to the 10 week mark this Friday. Which, by the way, I will be taking pictures to track my progress.

OH - and I almost forgot -- I tried on those size 16s again. Last time they were very tight and I had to lay down on the bed to squeeze myself into them. This time - they are still tight, but I managed to get them on, zipped and buttoned all while standing. See, it's small milestones like that to keep me happy. :)

Weigh-In .... Week 9

I lost 4 pounds!!!

Current Weight: 215

I'm THRILLED! I've dropped 20 pounds in a matter of 9 weeks.

I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

Unofficial Weigh-In

Okay, I cheated and weighed in early. But I can hardly contain my excitement.

I just weighed myself after my workout (not sure if that would make a difference or not) and I know nighttime isn't exactly the best time to weigh-in either - BUT - with the lack of progress over the past few weeks, I just couldn't resist since I've been back on track and exercised 3 times in the last 4 days.

So, for an unofficial weigh-in (I'll take tomorrow morning's weight as the official one) - but for right now - I lost 4 pounds!! That brings my total to 20! TWENTY!!!!!!!

Leptopril

I gave in and bought some today. A bottle of 95 capsules. They suggest taking 2 fifteen minutes before each meal, not to exceed 6 pills a day.

We'll see. It cost me $24 with shipping, so to me it's worth a shot.

On a side note - I did the 3-mile workout again tonight. I can definitely feel it in my muscles.

3 Miles!

Phew!! That was incredible.

For the first time, I just did the WATP 3-mile workout.

YAY me!

Now it's time to go jump in the shower.

Food Diary, Working Out & Pills

I've decided that I should probably continue tracking exactly what I'm eating, and counting those calories.

Sometimes it can be quite the pain in the arse if your meal consists of something that does not have the nutritional information listed right on it. Then you have to go searching, and I'm finding mixed answers in just what is in certain food items.

And as for working out - I have to start up again. It's been 9 days since my last workout. Though, a few times I've danced a bit, or did a few sets of squats (don't laugh, but a few nights ago I did 50 squats while in the shower). I don't consider that much of exercise, since it didn't take that much time to do. So, I did buy the WATP 3-mile DVD. And I still have hopes for an elliptical. Until then, I think I'm going to try to "wing" the WATP method while watching TV. I've been wanting to see A Time To Kill for awhile now, and started it last night (ON Demand), but fell asleep about 30 minutes in (only due to being extremely tired for some reason). So my tentative plan for tonight after dinner and getting the kids bathed and ready for bed, I'm going to turn on the movie, and MOVE. I'll just watch the clock and keep moving, doing the moves I'm used to from the WATP routines. It may not be exact - but it will be something.

Lastly, the pills. I'm seriously considering Lipovarin or Leptopril. I'm skeptical. Always have been with these things (as I was with the patches), but I'm starting to feel desperate. Life is busy, and there are some days I don't have the time or energy to eat sensibly and exercise as I should. And I have alot of weight to lose. If I were only looking to drop 15-20 pounds, that'd be one thing - but I have at least 75 to lose (and I'm 16 pounds closer to that). I just feel that I'm not seeing results like I'd like. At least over these past few weeks - and I know - some of it is choices I've been making, and I have myself to blame. I did make bad food choices and I have slacked in the exercise department. But I just feel like I'm never going to get to that goal.

The Lipovarin sells for big bucks, which is why I'm looking into the Leptopril. It sells for much less, but is supposed to be just as good. I haven't made a final decision - but I have placed some bids on some on ebay. If anyone has heard anything about it, or tried it, please comment!

Weigh-in .... Week 8

Stayed the same.

I'm surprised. Overeating, indulging, not exercising and having my period! I was bracing myself to see a gain - but I maintained.

I do need to give myself a good kick and get back into working out at least 5 times a week. It is just such a chore to me. I'd rather relax and watch a good TV program. I'm thinking I need to get some sort of machine so that I can watch TV while I exercise. Then I probably wouldn't have a problem going at it for 30 minutes to an hour EVERY day.

Would anyone like to donate money so I can get an elliptical? LOL